Sunday, June 17, 2007 ♥ 4:53 PM

Stressss

Yes, I'm updating. (OMG!)

It's quite sad how my life seems to revolve around one thing: the HSC. Nothing in life seems to be so significant anymore. Constant stress. I'm always thinking about deadlines, dates, etc. Then again, so is everyone else in Year 12. Right? Right, I'm not the only one that's being weird.

But seriously, how depressing is this? =( We're all conforming to this global, mono-cultural society where we all live the typical routine lifestyle - study, graduate from uni, get a job, marry someone with a sense of security, have x number of babies and finally, we die (most presumably from cancer). We have to live up to these expectations because this is what the "global" society expects of us. When will we ever be able to truly "retreat from the global"?

Sorry. My Ext eng assessment is coming up so =/ it's messing with my head. RFTG sucks.

The upside is though, the HSC in 4 months: 4 more months of suffering, then 4 months of relaxation. Yessssssss. =)

Anyway, back to dayblogging. I had my 3u maths assessment on Friday and I FAILED. No kidding, I'm being serious. Literally failed, and I know because I counted how many marks I lost when the teacher said, "Pens down." So now I'm considering dropping maths ext. To drop of not to drop? that is the question. It's a bit ris-kay because I'm only doing 11units right now. I could totally screw up ee2 (omg, knock on wood), and I'm on average in ee1. Alas, what a dilemma! Woe is me, woe is me. Trebla suggested I should decide after trials. Hmm.

I got my musicianship back results on Friday as well. I walked out of the examination hall crying that time since I thought I failed. But surprisingly, I got 82/100. LOL I don't know what happened. In retrospect, I could have done better and got over 90, grrr. Too bad I made so many mistakes.

Went to State library on Saturday with Kim to study chem. It was unproductive, oui? Kim ended up youtubing and ebaying, tsk tsk. I researched for ee2 and copied the table from Surfing. Bludged. Met up with Qin for 5 minutes - haha, Kim and Qin were doing a 4u q, so I felt excluded repulsed. =p Tried to study after Qin left, but ehh. Bludgyyy. We didn't even start studying for trials! To make it even worse, Kim manipulated me into getting hot chocolate from Lindt cafe. +10000000kg! I'm gonna end up on the biggest loser soon. You'll probably see me in next year in Teen Fit Camp or something, erghh.

So.. today. Had yumcha @ Rhodes with family friend and had rose tea for the first time. They actually put rose buds in it. It's like drinking perfume =/ It's an acquired taste. Went home, had English tutor and now I'm blogging.

I've been thinking about throwing a birthday party this year, but I still don't know what to do. Oh well, back to my beloved English. <3